Today has been a mixture of proactive thought but tainted by a call from the hospital. A is to have the MRI on Thursday under General. She is terrified and i am doing the positive mother thing of ‘come on it wont be so bad and over before you know it and next week we will have 2 lovely piggies to concentrate on, so you can dream of them while you having your treatment’
She gazed at me with a look of disbelief because she does know what is coming and it was the only test she never wanted repeated. Hopefully after the test she will get a reprieve and not have to go through it for a long time. Following this test, next Thursday she will be back to see the surgeon to see if they are going to attempt more surgery and then again 2 weeks after that we are back again to find out what affect the tumour will have on A for the next few months, years etc. I am positive it will all be fine, it is just the tests that i want to protect her from. I have never seen fear in her like i see in her eyes this time, and the words she says, ‘why me again mum?’ The only reply i can give is that she is better off than many many others and at least they are keeping a close eye on her so she is lucky. Inside i want to scoop her up and run, make life a fairy story and anything negative banished to the depths of oz.
To me she has been a tough cookie since she has spent more of her life in and out of hospital with heart problems and epilepsy and never complained or got upset. This time it seems to have got too much for her to emotionally contend with. But she is better than many and that is what we are going to focus on 
Other news today is that me and A got really excited ripping open the packaging to the C&C caging Simon bought me for mummy day. This will house our piggies. We sat attempting, yes attempting to construct the frame, two storey 4ft by 2ft by 2ft lol. A was amused that she can lay in it like a den . Now we need to collect newspapers and some correx and lots of fleece blankets to create piggy hotel, of which i have advertised on freecycle, in return i have listed some unwanted items from the shed Then we have to find some beds and toys to complete the place.
Tomorrow is a day for spring clean and hopefully energy permitting, finish the wallpaper in the kitchen…only been doing it for over a month lol
OK i am blogging out tatar for now 
New day
March 17, 2010 by nearlypassedit
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Wow! Popcorn and Fluffy are so lucky. They won’t know what to do with themselves when they come to live in your posh piggy mansion!
Don’t spend any money on toys though as piggies don’t really play with them, but they like hiding 
My heart was breaking for you and Abbie reading this post. I really don’t know what to say. Life is so unfair. No-one should have to go through this, especially a child and her wonderful mum. Wishing you both all the strength in the world and sending lots of love. H. xxxx